मृगतृष्णा

As i got up @ mdnight, I felt a sudden urge to find something.....,i don't know what...and the funny thing about not knowing it is....it could be anything.....
When i was getting ready for office, I was just looking @ my old nokia 1100 ....i dunno why.... i walked up to my regular waiting point....with every ring of phone in the crowded street....i checked my phone... At one point i had fifteen minutes with nothing to do except sit in a chair. Then I checked my cell ..again...i dunno for what...  I waited patiently all day long. Well i guess.....longer the wait sweeter is the fruit.

That's okay. There is still more time left, and I hope the right time has not come yet. I went home and i had lots of things to do but it seemed something is holding me back...something that tells me to look for something else....to do something else... After waiting hours, i turned on the TV. I don't know if i like TV or not, just about anything goes there and i spent lot of time today in front of it not thinking about anything, just waiting for something....i dunno what..... I waited patiently again as i ate my meal, but again.....

Bedtime.... I guess I am too tired....too tired of this ring which makes me walk in circle day after day in a vicious circle....which seems endless.....
i forced myself on bed to get a nap....few hours later i realized that i am still wide awake...perhaps waiting for something.....
then suddenly my whole life flashes in front of my eyes ...pictures so bright so vivid so full of life...
i find myself climbing trees with pranav in my backyard.....
chasing squirrels on the roof...jumping on the pile of hay....making mud houses in the fields.....playing in green grass....
then ..
in school..scribbling on the paper...throwing paper planes....watching ripples in the pond....riding cylce near fort...
and suddenly all of them stop whatever they were doing....they start staring at me.....the smallest me comes near me, smiles and asks ...i wanted to make a castle just like this mud house !!!! Have you made it?
I wanted to go to rivers, mountains, oceans and many more....!!! Did you do that !!!
i wanted to feel free and joyous all the time !!!!
Are you happy????
I sat there with myself on the same branch which i used as hiding place from my mom...
I told him that i did nothing of them....and i am not even happy ....
he asked me....what is holding you back...
I said ..... i donno....
He smiled and whispered in my ears...if you don't know then ....close ur eyes ...... lay back, relax and let go of the things you don't care.....hold the thing that is truly yours...
i smiled back.....Now i knew what this mysterious thing was....
And this mysterious thing is having key of my happiness...the cure of my restlessness.....

It is hard to have a one-sided conversation. Well, i am going to get up tomorrow once again.... And once again I will wait, Hoping that i will find what i am waiting for...

And once i get hold of it, i am going to cherish it forever....and ever..

Our heart should bleed for every Indian not just for Muslims, Hindu or anything else..

Agitation in Mumbai against the riots happening in Myanmar ....
Recently i read one article in The Hindu "Our heart must bleed for everyone... not just for Muslims"
This article, (as it was clearly visible) will certainly raise few 
eyebrows but we need to accept this fact that we Indians (Whether 
Muslims, Hindu or anyone) are taking things for granted. we are so 

vocal about petty issues happening @ some corner of the world that we
are not even focussed to think about our own issues. "If it rains in
Palestine we open our umbrellas here in India".
the author has connected the issue with one particular religion and i
don't think why should't we accept that !!!
People are crying their eyes out for killing of Muslims in Assam and Myanmar, but not a single protest in this country has happened for the BODOs who have suffered equally in this carnage .... We are so damn divided in our communal barriers that our feelings and support has got shrunk in our mental shell...
I want to draw the attention of readers towards some issues which
happened in past. for example statues of Buddha were vandalised in open
daylight and there was not a single violent protest in India cause
people knew it's actually futile to protest against the things which
are neither in our control nor under our influence. in similar way take example of recent killings
in Gurudwara in US. did any Indian protest in-front of US embassy in
India?? But when there is a riot against Muslims in Myanmar we are destroying lord Buddha statue in Lucknow, killing our own brothers from north-east, vandalizing Amar jawan jyoti in Mumbai ..... If caught the culprit should not be treated like common criminal but a damn terrorist who is trying to kill our secular image, who is killing the very spirit of the origin of our great nation..
Remember "there is no prosthetic to an amputated spirit" 

Role of Media:

Initially the media was sleeping as always (Every one knows why). But when story got bigger .... they rushed to the sites and did the same damage which was done @ 2002 godhara riots.....
and the thing which happened after these news flashes will be the most disturbing image of our already deteriorating communal harmony.
this is seriously a big challenge to figure out where is this country heading ... Cause if the situation continues like this, the time is not very far when we will come at the same cross roads where we were during time of our independence...

to sum this all up...

The problem is we still connect more to our religion rather then the country. the day we will start giving priority to our nation above our religion caste creed or sex, India will become a better place to live and prosper.

I am a maithil bramhin hindu

i didn't choose to be the same 

i inherited it....But i am proud of it's traditions and way of living

and i give equal respect to other's in the same manner i give to my upbringing (be it my caste , religion, sex or place of origin)

I hope there will be a better tomorrow for our shattered present...